Wednesday, May 20, 2015
I don't have much time left here.
It feels surreal.
How is it over? How has four years of hard work and classes ended just like that?
Today I began the process of packing my suitcases. There probably aren't too many people that can fit their entire life into two suitcases.
I feel like I've lived an entire lifetime here.
I can't even begin to explain how much it hurts me to have to leave. I don't remember ever being as happy anywhere as I am here right now.
I've been running to my favorite parts of the city more, thinking that it might be the last time I ever see these places. Even if I do come back to visit, it will never be the same.
I know that it will be the last time I ever feel like I'm home for a long time. I'm sure wherever I'm at next will slowly become what this place has been to me. But it will take time.
I know people will say, "look at all the other great places you will go" "change is good."
Those people have never dropped everything and left their entire life behind. I have done this more times than I can count.
I hate it.
I just want to go home. But I don't know where that is.
at 10:47 AM